dani - time for a real update.

make sure to check out adria's 18 month pictures!

it's so hard to believe my little baby is 18 months old. that's a year and a half. that's almost two years old. I can't believe how fast it's going.

she's been just as sweet as ever, minus toddler attitude and ear issues. jerrod and I took adria to the ENT doctors and they decided to give her tubes. she's scheduled to go in december 13th. she still isn't talking, but she's very good at pointing out body parts when you ask her too. she knows where her diapers are, her wipes, shoes, her chair and so on. if you ask her if she wants food she'll walk to her high chair. adria will say the first sound of words, so bird, baby, belly, boobs, bath and anything else that starts with a B comes out as "baaah". at least she's getting there. I love her jibberish.

the past few weeks I've been on a cleaning kick. instead of doing nothing more than playing with adria in the morning/afternoon, I've been cleaning. I do the dishes, wipe down the counters, sweep up the kitchen. sometimes I vacuum the living room and mop the kitchen. a few days ago I cleaned the bathroom and actually scrubbed the tile floor. it was gross but it needed it. then, I went through adria's closet and boxes and sorted all of her clothes. they're in bags according to size and season. I'm looking to give them away/sell them for like five dollars a bag. I need to get on buying adria large sized diapers. I have a few, but I mostly have medium fuzzibunz and those a getting a tid bit tight. so selling all those bags maybe I can get her a minky diaper, or those raw silk liners I've been wanting to get her.

but about our rooms! her's is completely cleaned and toddler proofed. then I FINALLY finished my room. I had a giant box filled with trash. I cleaned out underneath my bed and got rid of a lot of stuff I just don't need or use anymore. I'm such a pack rat. my room was swept and wiped down. dusted and sanitized. my bed is made and the only messes are on my desk and on my bookshelf. but that's because I don't have enough shelf space to make it look nice. I'm so proud of myself.

in other news, dani is now a working lady! my dad got me a job at panera bread. tomorrow is my orientation, and my first day of paid work. I know some of the people there, and the manager is so nice. I'm getting started at 8.25 an hour, which is a lot more than I was expecting to get started at. maybe I can get enough saved to where I can afford to move out with liz.

adria's dad and I have started talking about his visitation schedule. I don't even know what to think about this. he says I can stay with him if it comes to it but I just don't know. he's wanting to take my last name completely out of her name, and I know he'll get that because that's how the courts work. I'm so hurt that'd he'd do that to me when he knows how much it means to me. if he actually removes my names entirely from hers I don't think I can have anything to do with him at that point. I want to be friends with him but if he's willing to hit me where it really, really hurts then I don't know where to go from that. he's been telling me how he wants things to change, and he presents these in a way that sounds more like demands. like, he doesn't want my mom to babysit anymore. he wants adria in daycare and he said it in a way like "this is what's going to happen because I say so". he said if I move in with liz he wants adria to live with him and not me. and he said that in the same exact way. he said he's not compromising with the last name at all. I wish we wouldn't clash so much.